Girl interrupted

Sorry I haven't written in so long someone(little miss) was suposted to be writing this post a week ago, but she has been busy so i will forgive her. but i guess i should explain where i have been, about two fridays ago i checked my self into a mental hospital because things had gotten so bad that there wasnt a day that there wasnt a day that went by that i dint think about committing suicide, so little miss and BFB kind of had a intervention.

Now i have been in hospitals like that before but they were all the teens, the adult wards are so much better. you see i am an expert so if you are ever planning a trip to a ment ward just ask me and i will let you know the best ones. but i guess i should be serious now,but i was very glad that i did go in i did get help in there and i did make friends that i still keep in touch with.

While i was in there i was really relized that i have a drug problem and it sucked big time. It sucked because for the first time in what seems like a really long time i was sober. Being sober was relly hard especialy when i was trying to deal with problems, and for a really long time i handt dealt with with my problems i just got high. about the third or forth day i was there(i was there for a week) i broke down. it was really hard to deal. things just started overflowing im glad i was in a safe place, but then agian if i was at home then i just would have gotten high.

when they told me that i would be going home that day i got really nervous because i had to face the real world agian. that ment i had to talk to my friends who did drugs and go back to wotk and all that fun stuf. but i did it with the sapport of my friends and my family. i told all my friends that i dont do drugs any more and they were cool with that, after all that just means more drugs for them. and i start back to work next month and i moved in with Little Miss yesterday im getting my life back togther Yay me.