We Have a Little Cash

YAY I AM NOW AN AUNT
There are hardly words to describe how awsome it was to see my little nephew. My sister went into labor around 3:30 am on April 21, luckly i was the only one with my phone on. and another thing that was lucky was we were in New York so that morning we set of on a 3 hour road trip to see the happy new family. Because Cash was born about a month early his lungs hadn't fully developed so he had a lot of tubes. we got to be there the first time my sister got to see him(she had a C-section so she was in a lot of pain and couldnt go up there) to see her face was priceless. so now what everyone is waiting for especialy Little Miss with out further adow here is mynephew Cash David(i dont have permission to give the last name) <-this is my favorite

And the Verdict is.....

GUILTY.
wednesday we found out that i had been expelled from school. yesterday we went to the school for a meeting to decide what to do. i had the chioce to either fight it and have a hearing or just take my punishment and go to the alternative school. When we went in there i really wanted to fight it but after sitting there for a while, it felt like everything was moving around me like it was a dream a bad dream or i was watching a movie, but i asked one of my teachers that was there with me what she thought i should do and she just keept talking about how i was such a good kid and she cant believe i did this. the whole time this was happening the only thing i could think was yeah i know im a screw up so end me away to hide me i just wanna go get high.then it hit me i was going back to the old me, the me who depended on drugs the me who used drugs to escape from the truth and pain of real life. thats when i looked over at my mom and it was almost like she had read my mind and she said "this may be hard but maybe you need this"
and i think this is my wake up call from the Lord, because i know that i cant keep going down this path depending on drugs to make me feel better.

Under the influance

how messed up do you have to be to be considered under the influance, evadently if you take hlaf a bar (xanax) the night before around 8:30 then goto school the next day and a teacher over hears you talking about last night then you are considered under the influance at school. and if your just this unlucky that it goes this far they will suspend you until the know wheather or not they are expelling you. and after they tell you this they search your purse locker and pockets, see this wouldnt be a problem unless you smoke and you had your ciggerettes in your purse or if you have a hard time breathing and you have an inhaler or a nail file kit and oh yeah a digital camera. so if you havent guessed yet then here it is this was my day yesterday. i spent 3 hours in the school office them trying to convince me that i had taken the half a bar either at school or before. so know i dont know if im ganna stay at my school or go to an alternative school, and if i go to an alternative school then i cant walk with my class. which wouldnt be a problem but i have family flying in and have already got my anouncements see the problem. sometimes i feel like im never not going to get into some type of trouple i dunno, but if you could please pray for me that the person who decides what happens heart will be understanding and i will be able to stay at my school. this is a bar i took half, no way it would have last 11 hours