WHY

i know its been a while since i've written any thing. but things hvent been going very well. ive spent the last month taking my boyfriend in and out of the hospital because of infections. an two days ago i got some of the worst news i could hear,his cancer is back. when we were in the hospital they were doing blood cultures and a couple of days ago they told us to come in because they needed to talk to us then they dopped the bomb.

Im so scared, the type of cancer he has is multiple myeloma which is a cancer of the blood. Its not fair,its not fair to me or to him. i mean fuck havent we gone through enough in the last month. in the last month i lost my apartment and my job. we just started getting back on our feet, now we both have jobs and a place to stay. and then this is dropped on us.

so now i am lef wondering why this happening